So lets see besides going through three callings in the past couple of months I am finally the second counselor in the Relief Society. I mean talk about intimidating...first I was a gospel doctrine teacher, and now a counselor? But I know that it will be for the best and that this is where I am suppose to be right now! My goal is to just make people feel wanted and needed. I think that this is the most important thing that I can do to have people feel that they are needed and wanted. But I can't describe the overwhelming feelings that i have been feeling lately. I just want to spend a little bit of time and express my feelings of gratitude for my Savior. This year there has been times when I have never felt so alone and I know that he will never leave me alone. I will always have his companionship to be with me! What a comforting feeling to know that you always have someone to turn to. I also have never in my life felt SO inadequate in doing something, but it is just a reminder that even though I sometimes feel like there are so many people in the world, I know that i am still watched over and love not only by those here on earth, but also by my Heavenly Parents. And that love is one that will not ever dwindle. They will love me for what I do, and what I don't! They are just like my real family, they will watch over me and love me for the decisions that I make in my life. I also know that there is a loving Father that listens to my prayers. I know that sometimes they are not what they should be, and that it is more of just a check off my list, but I know that he does listen no matter what I say and I know that he cares and will answer what I ask for! After all I am his daughter and he loves me for that...
Anyways enough of that, on to the good stuff. So lets see what I have I been up to lately? I have pretty much just been up to school and trying to get good grades (Which if I do say so myself is going VERY well...) I also have been trying to make a new friend everyday in one of my classes. This is going really well, i am able to not only expand my friends, but also help me to realize what a friend actually is. They are someone who will be there through all the crap that I make them go through, and they will never get upset about it. They are someone who will be there when i need someone to cry on. They are someone who puts up with my horrible attitudes...even when i don't want to be around me!
So I recently realized that I have been a really horrid person lately and not happy with the world. I mean instead of looking at the world and LOVING my life I hated things that were going on. I would let little things bother me and make me upset. I finally realized that I didn't even want to spend time with myself...and have since come back to the original Brittany that we all know. YAY! This is something that my brother, Michael and Brandi are glad to have back. But I have since decided to not EVER let something get to me that bad. I mean I totally was not me...I was WAY to focused on the things that are not important, like boys (don't get me wrong, they are important, but they should not rule your life...I learned this the hard way). Now I am able to focus on things that are sincerely important to me and I realize that I have changed, and not for the better... So some new goals are to go and serve once a week and also to try and attend the temple if not once a week, then every other week!
Until the next post, thanks for everything and your support! I LOVE YOU with all my heart! LOVES!
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