So here is the blonde part of me coming out...I nanny for this family (which is SOOOO cute) and I was taking some picture with the kids, because I think they are SO cute. And I was looking at them, and all of a sudden I had this realization...I know that this realization is going to sound crazy and almost stupid but I realized that I'm a cute girl. I mean people say that, but for one of the first times in my life I actually believe it. I just needed to find out for myself, I told my mother my new found realization and she just laughed at me. And said she was glad that I finally realized this. I could not help but laugh at the fact that I finally realized that I'm pretty. I guess I just thought that people would say that just to be nice...but I finally know that it is not just to be nice, but it is also true!!! Ok, enough of my stupid realization and on to the rest of my life...
So I still have yet to find a cute guy that I am really interested in that is not dating someone or married... But as one of my goals this year to be nice to everyone, even the guys that show they are interested and I'm not... I have really been working on being nice and just myself to them. So part of this goal is that every guy gets a chance...(which was happening, but I still found myself doing somethings that were not extremely nice in order to let them know that I was not interested...) So the date this week that was to put it positive...interesting. I got asked out by this boy who's name is Bryan...well i get a text on Wednesday night and it was like hey what are you doing tomorrow? And I already had a tennis date set with one of my friends at 5:30...so I said that that was the only thing that I had going. And then he asked me through a text if I would like to get dinner...(-1 point) so I'm sitting here thinking that we must just be friends, because if it were anything else, he would have called. So I agreed that if I finished tennis at a decent hour that dinner would be good. So I get a call while I'm playing tennis...but I didn't answer cause I was playing. But it was him asking if dinner was a go...so I called him back after I was done playing tennis and said that I just needed to shower and then we could head off. So I got ready and I was waiting for him to come and pick me up...cause I mean he did invite me to go to dinner with him...thus my though process was that he would pick me up. Well I get a call five minutes after the time we set, and he was like are you ready? And of course i was, so I was like yes. And he said well I'm working on my bike... (so I'm sitting there thinking, does that mean your not ready? Or you want me to come and meet you in the parking lot?). So I was like well do you want me to meet you in the parking lot? And he was like ya that will work. So I headed over toward his apartment to meet him in the parking lot (up to -2). And so I meet him and we walk over to his car and I open my own door...(normally this would not be negative points, but he's going down fast so still -2). He then asks me where I would like to go, and having NO opinion towards the matter cause I don't want to go anyways I said that i did not care. So we sat in the car to 15 minutes waiting to decided where to go. When we finally decided on a place for dinner it was EXTREMELY late and thus most dinner places were closed. Thus we went for ice cream. Here he told me that he liked me and wanted to seriously date me. (WHAT THE HECK? I HAVE ONLY TALKED TO THIS BOY FOR LIKE AN HOUR OR TWO...AND YOU WANT TO SERIOUSLY DATE ME?!?!?!?!?!) So after explaining why he want to date me...which included that i was tall, attractive, played the harp, had a good personality, and was a fun person...i decided that we were just best as friends (and i used the term friends VERY loosely here.) He then precedes to tell me how his roommate said that if he didn't try and kiss me tonight that it would be a disgrace to all mankind. And that saying that was his way of trying....which I thanked him for but then he said the dates not over yet...and I'm thinking that is what you think...but there is NO WAY you are getting close to me with those lips let a lone kissing me.
After that awkward situation he then tells me how he wants to go to Vegas, and I was like ya totally go...it is a WAY fun place!!! And he was like you want to go with? And inside my head I was thinking NOOOOOOOO!!!!! But because I was trying to be nice I ended up saying not tonight... And then he preceded to tell me that our trip would go like this...
I would sleep the whole way there tonight (because I told him that I sleep A LOT...and through most movies). And he would be all hyped up on energy drinks driving, watching me sleep. ( I KNOW SUPER AWKWARD!!!!! If I hadn't cut a certain word from my vocabulary ( creepy) I would have used it instead of awkward. He then preceded to tell me that it would not be awkward if I had said that I wanted to date him. To which I replied that no matter WHO it was that considering the amount of time that we had known each other that it would be awkward.
After this we went to Walmart...I know great date huh? And we picked up supplies for his camping trip...and this is where I learned that he is rude and does not care about other people and the different things that you should do to respect people and stores. Something dropped on the ground so of course i picked it up and put it back on the shelf...when he decided that it would be funny to knock it down again. And say that it is someones job to pick it up...I know SUPER RUDE!!!! I mean it may be their job, but we should not make it worst for them! So we FINALLY LEAVE Walmart and are heading back home. And on the ride home he tells me that he could see me going home with him to meet his family...and that because of my personality that they would all wonder when i was going to propose. (And again I'm thinking OK first of all I would NEVER GO HOME WITH YOU...and second you don't know my personality! And third there is NO way I would marry you!) And then he preceded to say that that would be awkward cause we were just friends for now...I'm over there thinking FOR NOW???? How about we just be acquaintances? Anyways we get home and I give him a hug good bye and open the door as fast as I could and then say thanks and close it. It was record time if I do say so myself....
So I figured that he would get the hint and let me be alone, but the next Monday I get a call from him (which i missed on accident...although i probably would not have picked up anyways). And he was like hey i saw you taking some stuff from your car and I wondered how your weekend was...and I was thinking, ok you should have come over and helped if you were a real friend and second there is NO way I'm calling you back. So after a week of calls and texts i finally decided that this is not the way a friend acts and that I HAD to do something...So i sent him a polite text back saying "I'm flattered that you want to develop a relationship, but I'm really not interested in pursuing the same kind of relationship that you are. I've enjoyed our acquaintanceship but that is where i want to keep it is at an acquaintanceship." I know I'm a heart breaker...but I didn't want to lead him on in anyway shape or form. So I acquaintanceshiped him...but i think that it will be for the best. I mean he is not really a guy that i really want to be friends with anyways, so it was not that big of a loss.
That was my exciting week of realizations and dates:) hopefully I'll get a good one soon...i kinda get tired of the awkward dates that I go on, but at least I'm dating so i should not complain!
